2/14: Valentine's Woes

Dear Internet,

Surprise! I've become immensely stressed and am already so done with the semester!

Well, I guess I saw it coming. I had to drop two of the student orgs I'm in to clear up my schedule for everything else. I feel kinda bad for dropping out like that… but I know I wouldn't have been able to contribute any meaningful time. I want to do so much in college, but I have so little time.

Time has been a central theme in my life recently. I feel the hours, minutes, seconds slipping by when I have those little moments of respite between the endless meetings, emails, classes, and studying. I chase after them, even though I know they're gone. And I get upset with myself when I don't take advantage of those fleeting moments. That's the thing I hate! I know relaxation, taking time for yourself, just straight up chillin is healthy, but I cannot shake the feeling that I should be doing something constantly.

Okay! On a better note… I'm gonna be working on a recipe book for my projects page. The recipes I have right now in my arsenal are veggie stew, focaccia, and challah. I want to try to workshop more savory recipes like the stew. I need to branch out from easy to cobble together recipes like grilled cheese and mac and cheese, lol. Since I moved into a co-op, I have an entire industrial kitchen that I can use (well, not when people are cooking co-op meals, or cleaning)! So I'll be cooking, workshopping recipes when I can.

Right now I'm listening to the Magnus Archives, trying to actually get into it this time. I listened to the first 4 episodes around 2020. It's really intriguing so far, I'm interested to see the relationship between Jon and Martin bloom, since I know they get soooo homoerotic in the later seasons. That reminds me, I need to finish Arcane. I'm 2 episodes into the first season. I have an issue of not finishing things I start…

Hmm. This is a really short weblog. But it's better than nothing.

--Ajax